The miracle of birth.  We welcomed my first granddaughter back into this world yesterday.  I already know that she will be teaching all who have the pleasure of being close to her many lessons.

My daughter was talking to my other two grandchildren, aged 5 and 7, about my mother dying.  She asked if they were sad.  The eldest, without looking up from his game, answered “No.  You can always choose to come back.”  Well said.  These things are natural to them.  I appreciate my daughter keeping them so open, which is not always easy in today’s world. 

So, to arrive here is to leave there.  And to leave here is to go there.  In both cases, it is actually re-born.  Why do we keep coming back?  To become more perfect, more godlike: to grow closer to God.  One lifetime would not allow us that opportunity, so as we strive for perfection and it is more quickly reached by coming back to this earthly plane.  We choose to come back and place ourselves in certain situations (very often difficult circumstances) to accelerate our spiritual growth.  Depending how we work through those experiences, we create our karma (“good” or “bad”). 

Where is there?  While I have an understanding of this, better not to go too deep.  That’s why Jesus talked in parables to the masses.  They would not be able to understand the higher teachings.  His disciples were taught by him on a different, higher level.  Pythagoras and other philosophers also taught on different levels.  The road to Initiation comes in stages.  I do believe that when I was ready, the road opened up for me. 

Once I decided to start studying The Greater Mysteries, Master Stephen Co (www.pranichealing.com) mentioned Astara (www.astara.org).  I purchased my first book by Earlyne Chaney, Initiation in the Great Pyramid.  It was as if I was being reminded of things that I knew – as if it was my life, it was so familiar.  I signed up for the studies.  Now I have a greater appreciation of people, souls, spirits. 

After Rae “died,” I became interested in life after death.  Sure enough, I found a book called Journey of Souls by Michael Newton, Master Hypnotherapist who studied past life regressions which kept taking him to the place between lives.  Then Destiny of Souls.  I was fascinated as the case studies rang so true to me.  I found someone in Vinings, Georgia, who had studied under him and went to her for a past life regression, followed by a life-between-life regression. 

Three years ago, I also studied hypnotherapy and psychotherapy.  I was then able to do my own past life regressions for my clients, and it has proven to be fascinating and also assist them in their healing.  I attended a workshop by Dr. Brian Weiss (Many Lives, Many Masters) and told him that one day I would be on that stage.  He said “It’s not difficult” and I know this to be true. 

All this comes back to what is called “the circle of life.”  But most people who say this, must mean life and death here on the earth plane.  There is so much more.  And what a joy it is to know it.

Someone’s in my space!  How often have we “felt” this?  The person may not even be standing close to me, but may just be staring at me.  Either way, I feel it.  There is a change in my energy body/aura.

One of the reasons I love the movie “Avatar,” is because the Na’vi understand that energy does not die.  The physical body loses its animation and decays.  But the energy from that body, that energy that provided animation, lives on.

There are many words that this energy is known as: ki, chi, prana, ruah, mana, pneuma and more throughout the world.  The word I knew was chi.  I became more familiar with ki when my ex’s niece started doing Reiki and gave me Reiki sessions.  I knew that I could feel my energy body change as she moved over the different areas of my body, not necessarily even touching me.  She is very gifted and was able to tap into past lives or situations that may have led me to the state I was in.

Four years ago, I was attuned to Reiki, but was not really taught.  I ready a book and learned the symbols.  A year later, I was ready and did it all over again, but this time I was a part Reiki circles and worked with other practitioners.  Now, I actually felt the energy, or lack of it.  It was stimulating and exciting for me – and helped the client too.  For a while, I held Reiki circles in my home.

Two years ago, a friend of mine sent me an email about a seminar that was being held where Pranic Healing would be demonstrated.  She sent it to me because she knew I was interested in prayanama breathing.  I went and immediately knew that Kaveta Chhibber (www.kavitachhibber.com), the lady holding the seminar, would be my next teacher.  I was right as less that a month later, I completed the Level 1 class.  The first day, I partially healed a torn tendon in my foot.  The next day, I walked without a limp.  A few days later, I healed a torn tendon in my personal trainer’s foot.  He only needed one session as it was a new injury, whereas mine was older and required more help including that of my chiropractor. 

As I continued through the lessons and worked on many people, I begin to understand the nature of energy even more.  With Pranic Healing, we assist in healing psychotherapy cases also.  I have worked on people suffering from depression, grief, paranoia, schizophrenia, violence (after losing touch with reality), weight loss, tobacco addiction and drug addiction, so far.  As fascinating (and humbling) as it is to assist in healing someone with osteoarthritis, autism or cancer, the psychotherapy cases (to me) are even more miraculous.  Most of them are what we term “distant healing,” meaning that the person is in Orlando or somewhere else, while I live in Atlanta.

Last weekend, I had the privilege of attending a Pranic Feng Shui class with Master Hector Ramos (www.alicorninstitute.com).  Based on my knowledge of energy through Pranic Healing, it is easy to understand why the position of my house, main door, the direction I sleep in - and more – are important to create a smooth flow of energy most beneficial to what I want, i.e., financial success or to accelerate my spiritual growth.  Or, if I don’t have this smooth flow, what the remedies are to correct this.  It is wonderful to know that I can change the energy flow to assist in the overall comfort of the home or office areas.

We are energy.  Isn’t it amazing to know/feel that we are all connected?

I remember the first time I saw disease spelled dis-ease.  It made perfect sense to me.  Today I am feeling some dis-ease. 
I know that emotions have a direct connection with disease.  Now it also seems to be working the other way round.  The day started off bright and cheery, rushing around and getting things done at work.  In fact, it was going exceptionally well.  Then the stomach cramps and associated runs to the Ladies room started.  I came home early to work on me (while outing a fire at work up until a few minutes ago).  I noticed though, that my brilliant mood from earlier in the day, had totally disappeared.  As I felt the cold sweats come on, I was becoming a not very nice person.  Once I recognized this, I could do something about it rather than wallow.  So, here I am back on the computer getting my emotions back on track and feeling much better already.  Heal the emotions and you will heal yourself.
That's one of the things that Abraham says.  We have an emotional yardstick.  If you are really low, suffering from something like clinical depression, how do you feel better?  Become angry.  It's a step up.  You move up the yardstick incrementally.  How long can one really stay angry?  Act.  Do something positive about your predicament.  Now you are another step up.  Having taken action, you have completely turned around and are probably looking forward to being pleased with yourself about rising up and shaking off the depression.  It doesn't always happen overnight, but it does happen.  Keep climbing up until you are back on top. 
When Rae died, I suffered from depression.  I didn't realize that's what it was until she came to Becca for one of her visits and said, "Tell Mummy I'm with her when she can't sleep at night and has hot Milo (hot chocolate)."  I hadn't told anyone I wasn't sleeping well.  I found I was clutching the steering wheel of the car driving to work and was scared to change lanes.  (Rae died in a car crash on a wet day.)  The wet roads made it worse.  I also realized I was seeing things through a veil of grey - literally.  Once I realized that I was depressed, I got a generic Xanax to sleep at night and was able to work well during the day.  Then it's just a matter of time before it goes.  For me, it wasn't long.  This seemed to happen on the various birthday, holidays and anniversaries particularly in the early years following her transition.  Strange to me though, because I know she is with me, so why be depressed?  I put it down to being human and perhaps also being a mother.

My very first blog.  And it's my mother's birthday, so Happy Birthday Mummy! 
I see many things in my daily activities as signs, and sure enough, today there were a few.  I had what could be considered a nightmare - a tidal wave going to hit a hotel with me, my sister and a friend in it - while we all remained calm.  It wasn't until later in the day that I realized what this meant.  I'm gathering my forces to do what I should have been doing for some time - energy healing and more.
My youngest daughter, Bianca, called me early to tell me she dreamed of Granny Carolyn.  I forgot to mention to you that my mother died last June.  Actually, I prefer to say transitioned, as that is what she did.  We'll get to that later.  Bianca didn't realize it was Mummy's birthday, so the dream meant even more when she realized that there is a deeper meaning than just having had a dream.
These things happen to us, my daughters and me, quite frequently.  Becca (Rebecca - my middle daughter) is really good with dreams.  She can tell when her sister Rae (Rachael who transitioned in 2003) visits her and when it is a dream.  Following Rae's transition, Becca passed on messages to us from Rae.  It was lovely and we all welcomed them. 
As Pierre Teilhard de Chardin, a Jesuit priest said "We are not human beings having a spiritual experience; we are spiritual beings having a human experience."  How true this is.  Over the years Rae has guided me, mainly by tickling me on my neck.  Sometimes its a caution to which I had better pay attention.  Sometimes its more of a pat for a job well done.  I have only had about 5 dreams/visits from Rae in the nearly 9 years she has been gone, but her presence is with me.
Like Mummy.  Once she realized she was going, she told me to tell her what to expect on the other side.  While I was excited about this, I also realized that for someone who was Anglican (Episcopalian) and read her Bible daily, I had to be careful about how I presented what I know.  I had already introduced her to reincarnation (which she said she didn't really believe in, but then would recount a story which negated that), chakras and the energy body and healing.  She was struggling with it and happy to be open to it, even without a full understanding.  I do know that when she did the Twin Hearts Meditation while I healed her of what I could (she was in the final stages of lung cancer, liver cancer and it was in her lymph nodes), she was at peace.  My sister, who doesn't believe any of this, realized that it was good for Mummy too.
So, I had said to Mummy that when she went she was to give me a sign that she was on the other side.  We didn't say what this sign would be.  She went on a Thursday morning and on Friday evening, I was lying between sleep and waking.  I saw a tiny ballerina in my mind.  When I focused more, I realized it was Mummy.  Then I had a flashback of us watching an old Esther Williams movie, the synchronized swimmer.  There was an underwater ballet scene.  I flashed back to Mummy roaring with laughter with her head thrown back and camping it up with her arms.  It was the perfect sign.  I haven't seen her since then, but felt her energy as my heart chakra grows and warms up. 
I could go on and on and will, but at another time.  Now I need to get dinner started.